2013 Crossfit Opens-Check

8 Apr

Let failure drive you to be better next time.

So the opens is over.

Five weeks of the biggest roller coaster I’ve ever been on.

In case you were unaware this, I can be a little emotional….only sometimes =) I would say about 80-90% of the time I am happy, bright, and positive. I know it shines through in my work life, my social life and in my blogging world, but today I am going to have a quick, short pity party. Vent session if you will.

I have about 100 different feelings going through me right now.

Last night as I find out that CFD’s team is going to Regionals (technically not official until tomorrow night at 7pm, so cross your fingers nothing crazy happens) I was so happy! I know the next few months of training and getting to compete with some of my closest friends, will be so much fun!

At the same time I saw our team ranking, I also so where I ended individually.

I knew from the beginning of the opens that I wanted and was going to be a part of the CFD team if/when we made it to Regionals. However, to say that I didn’t think I would at least have the option to choose would be false. Based on how I did last year, I was certain that I’d have that ability. Needless to say, I am far from pleased with where I finished individually. To be honest…I’m pissed, frustrated, confused, sad, disappointed, embarrassed, and so much more. It is most definitely not where I thought I would be AT ALL. I could make a ton of excuses, the workouts this, the # of athletes that, yatta yatta, but the truth is it just sucks. I wanted to do better. I thought I would do better.

That’s the best I can come up with right now. It’s hard for me to even put my feelings into words because when I think about it I really just want to cry and scream all the same time.

Purely defeated.

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*Tank compliments of LatitudeGearRx!

Ok, my pity party is over. Thank you for joining, time to move on.

CFD rocks my world. I couldn’t be happier or more proud to be a part of such a wonderful team! After playing soccer for 20 years, wow that’s a long time, it will feel great to be back competing with others.

Some close people in my life have said some very meaningful things to me in the last 24 hours post 13.5 that I’m really trying to hold onto and focus on. I can’t be upset forever-must look at the bigger picture and move forward.

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If I take a step away and look at this from a Coach’s standpoint, I’d ask the athlete; did you do your best? Did you improve from last year? Did you finish without any regrets? Did you do more than you might have even though possible? Did you learn? Did you grow as an athlete?

If you or should I said I can answer yes to all of those questions then I think the last 5 weeks were a success. I know I’ve said this before but it isn’t always about the speed bumps along the way, it’s about the journey that gets us to where we want to go.

The opens is just another speed bump in my Crossfit journey.

The most successful people in life are not those who do not make mistakes. The most successful people are those who make mistakes, sometimes big ones. It’s those who can take their failures and turn them around, make them a positive growing experience to learn from.

Mistakes are just building blocks to our success. If we didn’t have them we would never succeed.

So take that Opens. I’m just going to use my frustrations, disappointment, anger and turn it into power. Power in my training so that I can contribute greatly at Regionals, turn it into motivation and determination to be the best teammate I can be. Look out North Central-here we come!

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Contrary to popular belief, I do know that without all of the amazing people in my life Crossfit would mean nothing to me. So today, I feel lucky. Lucky to have such wonderful people in my life who love, encourage and support me.

Plus I just had to add that photo in there! I loved our date night at Bottle and Bottega and loved the opportunity to test out my artistic abilities. Life’s not all about throwing heavy weights around 😉

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2 Responses to “2013 Crossfit Opens-Check”

  1. Liberty April 10, 2013 at 1:29 pm #

    I know Turbo always bounces back with a smile on her face. Don’t dwell on the bad too much, you had solid scores all the way through, and I saw your 13.1 performance and it was freaking amazing! One thing you have that is clearly visible in your athletic ability but more importantly in your relationship with friends, clients…even strangers is HEART. You do everything to the fullest and its contagious, you inspired me to do my best over the past 5 weeks, in fact you are the reason I am crossfiting at all. Not stop pouting and start kicking ass. CFD TEAM!

  2. lmurphy1017 April 10, 2013 at 1:36 pm #

    Thanks Lib!! You just gave me the chills! Ready for Regionals-CFD TEAM!!! what what =)

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